So it’s been a hot minute since my last post and I would like to apologize! I hate to admit the true reason for putting my blog on the back burner, but I think y’all deserve to know!
All of the posts I have posted, I wrote once I overcame whatever I was going through. Only after I made it through my circumstances was I able to see the lesson and/or reason for whatever had been thrown my way.
Recently, and pretty much since my last post in April, I have been at a major crossroads. I guess you could say I’ve been in this state of confusion since graduation back in December (at least!) but I think I had so much old heavy baggage to unpack and exchange for new fluffy baggage, that I didn’t have the chance to realize that I didn’t even know where I was taking all of this new baggage. I was at a pit stop/standstill working through all that I was working through, and I didn’t give any attention to the actual journey I was equipping myself for.
Now that I have all of my baggage in order, my car packed, and God as the driver, I realize I cannot figure out the map.
My lease is finally up in College Station, and as difficult as it was, I put in my notice at my dental office in order to focus on getting where God wants me. That’s it! Nothing keeping me in College Station anymore! But now what? Now where do I go and what on earth do I do??
Those have been the questions keeping me up at night, and writers block keeping me from writing anything I consider “post-worthy” for my blog.
What if I make the wrong choice?
What if I am misreading God’s signs?
What if the things I am taking as God’s signs are really my fears coming out, keeping me from going any direction?
I honestly have never felt so completely and utterly lost about my future and where my life is headed. And maybe that’s natural— up until now my life choices have been pretty straightforward: I grew up in Beaumont, moved to College Station for college. The end. But now, I have nothing bounding me to any one specific place or purpose.
I haven’t really ever had any decisions to make. God very clearly put Texas A&M University in my heart and brought me here. Nothing I have done has ever been a question because I so clearly heard God directing me.
But now, all I hear is God constantly telling me to trust.
A good friend sent me an article by Chandler Vannoy in Relevant Magazine that talked about discovering God’s plan. One of my favorite things it says is:
“If we knew every step and detail of our lives, there would be no reason for us to trust God… It would be like someone spoiling the incredible plot twist of Fight Club or Inception. What makes the story great is the confusion and uncertainty, and in the end, every puzzle piece comes together to create a beautiful picture.”
If you’re like me, you probably read that and loved it, but you’re still thinking, “ok soooooo what do I do now????”
The answer I’ve come to: Seek God. Trust in God. Rely fully on Him.
“Trust in The Lord with all your heart. And lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5
No Wrong Choice
I have noticed one similarity between the questions taunting me lately, and that is that they are all asked in response to making a choice between different possible paths for my life.
If I had a penny for every conversation I’ve had with close friends about choices, signs, luck, and chance, I would probably only have a dollar, but you catch my drift.
Here’s what I’ve learned:
- There is no “wrong” choice
- There are no missed opportunities
- God will always provide. ALWAYS.
If God wants it for you, it WILL happen. No matter what it is, where you are, or when you’re ready. All you have to do is TRUST that He knows what’s best and that His plans are way better than yours. *******
If you haven’t listened to the song “While I’m Waiting,” by John Waller, I definitely suggest you at least look up the lyrics. Actually, here, now you have no excuse ;)
I'm waiting, I'm waiting on You Lord
And I am hopeful, I'm waiting on You Lord
Though it is painful, but patiently I will wait
And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait
Basically you’re wasting a whole lot of energy and life trying to figure out God’s plan for you, because He won’t show you until he’s ready anyway. His main will for your life is for you to glorify Him continually.
Something else I love in that article from Relevant Magazine is:
“No matter what your future plans are, God wants you to seek and glorify Him right now— God’s will is your growth to be like Christ and glorify Him in all things.”
Be like Christ, and glorify Him… this will transform your heart. “And if God has given us a new heart that desires what He desires, our decisions are going to line up with His.” (Vannoy, Relevant Mag.)
Well what does He desire? For you to FULLY trust and seek Him in all you do. Do this is and The Lord WILL provide.
“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need.” Matthew 6:33
“Take delight in The Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4
I would say the conclusions and epiphanies I’ve had so far are a pretty good reason to MIA from blogging for a few months. ;)
If you are facing a crossroads in your life direction right now and need to talk or just want someone to pray with or for you, you know where to find me!